A popular reddit neckbeard mantra is “being bad at something is the first step towards being kinda good at something”.
This quote is from a children’s television show, and I think it has laid the basis for how I work the way I do.
Another quote that has helped me build on that philosophy is David Lynch’s idea of creativity as being like fish.
What this has taught me about myself is that I am very prone to start fishing, to then wait for the rod to pull, before periodically walking away before a catch is caught.
Obviously this is a bad thing in principle, but I cannot help being the way I am.
This website has been a challenge I have set myself in persistence that I refuse to fail, since I’m an admittedly lazy person who can’t stick to anything for any unbelievable amount of time.
Going forward, I am torn between deleting the articles I haven’t finished, or leaving them like ruins to time; as a reminder to myself to not let it get that way again.
I am a fisherman in principle, I look for ideas to bake with rosemary and lemon in tinfoil; but I am new to this world of self-motivated creativity so will make stupid mistakes over and over again BEFORE THE SLOTH IS BEATEN FROM ME.
I think I’ll finish this with an understanding that I will forgive myself these last few trespasses and continue again a-new.
before I conclude this piece I want to express my thoughts on this matter with a third quote, from Anthony Bourdain.
“I understand there’s a guy inside me who wants to lay in bed, smoke weed all day, and watch cartoons and old movies. My whole life is a series of stratagems to avoid, and outwit, that guy.”
There’s literally an article on Medium.com about this quote and I think that must mean there are loads of people who feel this way exactly, which makes me feel slightly better about being the unmotivated hack I have been.
With Corona, the sunk job market, dwindling funds and the worsen seasonal weather I have a lot of things I can blame my absence from this website on.
But doing that would be disingenuous on my half, because ultimately my “series of stratagems” as Anthony Bourdain would put it has failed miserably.
I only want put out good stuff, so the output of this website may not be as bountiful as it could be. But ultimately is something is worth doing, it’s worth doing badly.
Sorry again, if anyone’s listening